Facing Fears

I try to convince myself that I don't have a heart but every now and then I feel it hurting the pain spreading through my chest and I can't breath I don't want to all I want is for someone to hold me to tell me they love me tell me I'm important and they don't want me to leave I tell myself I don't need love it's just a game a thing kids make up to give them hope for the future well I grew up too fast and gave up a long time ago now I guess it's all catching up with me all the pain hits me at once it demands to be felt like a tide hitting the shore it comes in waves every time I think I'm safe I find myself drowning all over again and I can't get up I can't swim I have no strength my strength is in the other half of myself that I haven't found yet and I keep searching desperate for air desperate for love but again and again I fall into the water I'm drifting away in the current and I don't know where I am or where I'm going all I know is how I got here and I want out all I can think is will someone ever save me?