i want it and i want it now

I think often times we find ourselves craving the exact things we've spent so much time trying to avoid. It seems the problem with conciously avoiding something is that it subconciously makes you want it more. For example consider the following quote: "we accept the love we think we deserve". You see if conciously you are trying to avoid a certain type of person or relationship then subconciosly we are thinking that's what we want. In other words we end up being in the exact type of situation we were originally trying to avoid without even realizing that's what we've done until its too late. In my own life I've found myself in a situation that to outsiders may not seem like the best option for me, and maybe a few months prior I would've agreed with them. The problem is that when you decide to look past someone's flaws you may not realize that it could potentially damage you. In my situation those flaws were certian actions or habits that I (and others close to me) don't totally agree with. I chose to look past those things because I knew this person had potential; however I often found myself wanting to transition him out of those things. How does one do that without sounding maternal? So I was caught between trying to get this person on the right track or joining them in order to be accepted. In this situation it is important to understand that you shouldn't have to fight for your acceptance. I am no longer seeing this boy, the thing is he said is that we just live two different lifestyles that don't really blend together; and he was absolutely right. Don't get me wrong though, last summer I thought the world was ending and there was no hope for me ever finding someone. Its like that for a while after a breakup, but then I realized that I didn't need to be with someone who would be holding me back from leading a healthy and successful life. I also realized that the main reason I wanted to be with him was so that I could fix him, but he didn't want to be fixed. True, the things he was doing and continues to do are unhealthy but that is his decision, and it is my decision to never get involved with someone like that again. Remember, you don't have to accept the love you think you deserve; accept the love you know you deserve and stop selling yourself short!